On Dragonflies and Dreams

On Dragonflies…

When I was growing up I remember seeing dragonflies all the time during the spring and summer…now that I’m older I can’t recall the last time I saw a dragonfly. Do you remember your first dragonfly sighting? Scared? I remember the first time I saw a dragonfly…at first glance they are quite terrifying for an insect (a rather large insect at that) but after the initial sighting they tend to grow on you. Although they can bite I don’t recall having ever heard of anyone being bitten by one and whenever I’ve seen one they seem content going about their own business. As I said earlier I haven’t seen one in quite some time…since I was a child I think. You see they have all disappeared from my life….I’m sure they still exist somewhere but I guess I stopped looking somewhere along the way. It’s funny the things that disappear from your life when you get older and have responsibilities.

 

On Dreams…

 

I used to have vivid dreams growing up, some were scary and some were exhilarating …and some were very real and woke me in a fit of terror. These days I wake up remembering dreams of work or things unfinished in my life. Losing Dragonflies is bad enough but losing dreams I won’t stand for.

 

I don’t have time for these things anymore because I’m an adult…I have responsibilities…I have to live up to whats expected of me. So what exactly am I working so hard for? Money, career, the nice place to live, the truck, the newest cell phone…..I’ve tried to buy into all the trappings but I still don’t feel right…Where are the Dragonflies & Dreams?

 

They’re still there lurking somewhere in the background. Every now and again I can just catch a glimpse of them and they are calling to me. I’ve tried to ignore them but their faint call echoes in my mind not letting go….not letting me ignore them anymore. They say I work too much…they say I’m stressed out….they say I missed the point of it all.

 

We all work too much. We say we work so we can live and do the things we love but in all reality it becomes a vicious cycle of work and bills and more work….until we’ve forgotten that life is supposed to be lived not worked. Do you need the bigger car? The new house? The Rolex watch? ( not that I’ve ever owned one). What would you give up to be happy? Not rich or powerful….just simply happy. I’ve given this much thought lately and at first my thoughts scared me and made me wonder what other people would say if they knew what I was thinking…..even worse what would those I love think?

 

Soon enough they will find out what I’ve been thinking and I’m sure the reaction will be bad…but isn’t that always the way when a human being does the opposite of what other people think is right. Over the next year I’ll be laying it all out here in words. I’ll let you in on who I am and where I’ve been….even better where I’m going. For now know this, although I haven’t seen a Dragonfly in some time….I’ve started dreaming again!